10.19.09

Yesterday was not a good day for me. I thought I had everything in order. I thought that everything was going to be smooth sailing and that I would pass my Psych. Exam. I barely passed, I made a 74 on it. I studied my butt of for the exam. I thought that I would at least make a B. I was hoping for an A. I was so upset yesterday that I feel into a little depression and did not want to be bothered by anyone. My best friend Jackie gave me a hug to try and make me feel better and that only helped a little. She told me something that made me realize that it is not the end of the world and that I still have time to fix it and bring my grade up. She said " you win some, you lose some. You are not going to win every time and there is always time to fix it." She even used herslf as an example. I thought about what she said and realized that she was right and that I did do better then I did on my first exam. After that I felt better and to really get my mind off of i went to work out with Morgan and some other friends.The workout really made me feel good and not think about it. It helped me to put it in the back of my mind and I felt like it was so far away and that I could deal with it another day. I went home and My mom and I got into it about me not having a job, so I can by my own things and not ask her for any money. I said that I wont ask her for anything anymore. Later on we came to an agreement I will get a job, but only work like three days. I get a refund check of over 2,000 dollers and I give her 1,000 of it. I also explained to her that college is a full time thing and I'm stll adjusting to it. After all of this I went to sleep and in the morning I felt better and felt like I can balance all of this.